Rohoph’s alien people are genderless, but in MARDEK male pronouns are used to refer to them, so I do the same.
Rohoph.
Rohoph the Healer.
Rohoph of Anshar.
He died in our world.
His soul has taken refuge in my Cruxis Crystal.
As Lloyd and I begin our romantic relationship.
As we were dating and sleeping together.
Rohoph was there, watching us.
With his single bright white eye.
As Lloyd takes my hands in his.
As Lloyd kisses me.
As Lloyd puts his penis in my vagina.
As I cum, as I moan.
As Lloyd comes inside me.
Rohoph is still there.
He never commented on my love for Lloyd.
He never stopped me from loving him.
And yet.
Yet I feel strange.
I feel like I love him.
But Rohoph doesn't love me.
He just used my body to survive, that's all.
That's what he told me at first.
But now he respects me, admires me and...
And I think he loves me.
He's never told me, but...
This feeling.
Of jealousy when Lloyd is intimate with me.
Of anger at not being able to touch me.
Of sadness at not having a body.
Yes, Rohoph must love me.
And I love him as well, no doubt.
But Lloyd... I don't want to betray him.
I cannot love two people.
Can I?
Oh, Goddess Martel, give me courage!